Mist died in 2003. Mar died on my birthday in 2003.
Now I lose Gnome?
I go on occasional crying jags. Don't know how I'm going to deal - but deal I must. Mirin seems to know something's seriously wrong-Spalding comes and lies in my arms and tells me by purring how much he truly loves me.
Seth went out - I can't ask him to sit with me all the time. He's off for the week. Wish I were. Don't know how I'm going to deal with the stress this week with this added heart wrenching sorrow.
Maybe I should go to sleep early.
Endless the sorrow, countless the tears